HELL(o) WEEK

I have a shit load of reading and studying to do this week.

• Finish reading my Balinese book
• Write a 4-5 page paper responding to it
• Read 4 never-ending pdfs
• Read 3 new chapters of Physiology, along with the 14 previous chapters (Thanks to cumulative exams)
• Study for FAMR
  

Sounds pretty fucking wonderful. Ugh, I don't even know why I bother wasting my time blogging about what I'm going to do, when I should be making use of this time to actually do it.

Blogger will be my personal journal.
My thoughts don't seem to blend in with the overpopulated quotes, photos, etc. on Tumblr.

Practice what you preach

If you don't want to be hurt, by all means, don't even bother playing the game.

Bye

Since it's summer and I have all this extra time to spare in my life, I checked out Tumblr.

I'm leaving Blogger for Tumblr. Sorry.

Haha. Tumblr is way more interesting and fun.

rizzletakeswrists.tumblr.com

twitter.com/rawzell

[Follow me]

I'll slowly move my posts there or find another way.

iPhone

Technology is my enemy. Having something brand new is temporary, but the pleasure of having it is so great that it probably doesn't even matter. In order to make money in this world, big companies need to come up with new shit to sell so people will buy it. 

So I had this crazy idea a few days ago when I decided that I wanted the new iPhone. I don't know whether I'm going to get it or not because I'm with T-mobile not AT&T. That's probably going to cost me half a thousand to get an un-locked one. Damn. Maybe i'll re-think this because that's too costly for me and money seriously does not grow on trees. 

Anyway, I'm finally going to the carnival tonight.

I'm not really sure if I'm going to ride anything because I'm usually just there to eat their grinds and I'm a pussy when it comes to rides that go upside down. But maybe i'll change my mind.

P.S. My software updates on my Macbook is taking forever and a day -__-

This weather makes me so irritable.

Har har

Afterall, I'm not the fool.



* I had fun.
4 hours of shleep.

P.S.
I hate pot holes.
Dear Government,
DO SOMETHING, NOW.

Sims 3

Maybe I have no life?

But I want this game soo bad. 

Buy it for me, please.

Or if you own the game, let me borrow!

"At one time in your life, the one you have loved the most will unexpectedly turn out to be the greatest stranger you have ever met."

Mom

I really can't describe how cool my mom is. I hang out with her almost every day after she ends work.Pick her up. Drive her everywhere. Buy stuff. Eat. Talk.
Today we hung out in the Pearlridge parking lot while I ate my teriyaki bowl and she talked about credit cards. It was cute. Even though our relationship fluctuates most of the time, I feel like she understands me better now. I love her.

Lantern Fest

Wet jeans. Driving with no pants. Blazin' steaks. 2nd floor parking structure of Kam shopping.

Totally worth getting my jeans wet.

3-in-1

Radford H.S. Graduation - Aloha Stadium

Eduard Panen's Graduation Party - Pacific Beach Hotel

Nicole Biete's Graduation Party - Hale Koa Hotel

I was suppose to attend 4 parties but I missed my cousin's 18th birthday party. Sorry Naedine! :(

Graduation's over. What now?

Project grad wiped me out since I only got an hour of sleep.
Meaning, I was really cranky and I literally knocked out when I got home.

I pretty much didn't wake up until 1PM, totally missing Damien Graduation.
DAMN. But I DID make it to St. Francis Graduation.

Congrats Sherry! (And everyone else I lei'd)

But I made up my lei-ing session at Terence's house for a hang-out.

SHA's Centennial Graduating Class - Commencement Day

The day that seemed so far away has finally happened. After 4 years, I finally graduated from Sacred Hearts. It really doesn't feel like I've graduated, but I'm still really happy. It's pretty much unbelievable. My parents' hard work and sacrifice in sending me to a great school has pulled off. I accomplished my goal in graduating with honors and also receiving two awards. I love accomplishment, it's one of the best feelings in the world. Well, congratulations to all my SHA C/O 2009 ladies. We did it! Good luck with all your future endeavours. I'll miss you all. (Thank you to everyone who came to lei me. You're the best!)

High school - the best years of my life.

Looking back at the past, I feel like I've grown up so much.

I've learned from my mistakes, worked my ass off, gone through really good and bad days, and still managed to get through. I've never been so proud of myself.

But, I don't think I would've survived high school without my girls. I love them. It's going to be sad when half of them leave for college.

I have yet to make summer goals, but one of them is to most definitely make this the best one and chill with everyone before they leave for college :(

Baccalaureate Mass

Yesterday was the last day for Senior exams and everything seems to be passing by so quickly. Since I'm still sick and recovering from a cold, graduation practices have been dreadful. But apparently half the senior class is sick too. Shows how quickly a sickness can spread.

We ate lunch with the SHA sisters at Regina Pacis today and I started to feel a little sad inside after we sang our class song to them. I can't believe my four years of high school are ending and I won't be seeing the 137 girls that I see almost everyday. The days before graduation are bittersweet and kind of depressing, but I need to accept life.

Tonight was Baccalaureate Mass and also the first time the whole class was seen in their cap and gown. The mass was touching and I can't deny that I teared during Ms. Zeurn's speech. It really made me think about every women's worth and I seriously felt that it was true. I will truly miss high school. Hmph, growing up kinda sucks.
Our last graduation practice tomorrow. Then, the real thing on Saturday. Ah, wtf.

Btw,

Happy Birthday Jerald.

Vulnerable

I'm sick
and I hope to recover...
SOON.


Exams?
I don't feel like studying

Good-bye, High School

My days at SHA are officially over. I can't believe time went by so quickly. I thought the senior prank this year was cute, minus the bathroom prank (putting 'out of order' on the soap dispensers and leaving a bottle of 'soap' with honey). I'm going to miss high school sooo much. I thought it'd hit me by now, but it hasn't. Aghhh. This is too unbelievable.

"One Moment in Time"

We ended school at 1PM today because of the band concert at Mamiya Theater. I went back to town and picked up Lexi at Jewel or Juice. Being the supportive friends that we are, we watched our band geeks (Kathleen and Casey) perform their last band concert. The concert was awesome, but I was really bummed that I missed the Drum line ;( Me and time aren't good together. I'm late for almost everything. But as I said, the concert was awesome and call me lame, but it made me regret dropping out of band in freshman year.

Jazz Band with Kathleen on zee drums

Concert Band with my loves, Casey and KathleenI LOVE BAND GEEKS

Honors Convocation

Let's just say it was really hot in the gym that day and I love my friends :)

Double Celebration

Happy Mother's Day! My brother and I got my mom these really pretty sunflowers and I also gave her this cute little picture frame with our picture in it. She liked it :) Too bad I don't have a picture of her bouqet ;( In celebration of Mother's and my cousin's 6th birthday, we had a family gathering at my house. Just like all parties, we had really good food. I love my auntie's tapioca salad!

Family gatherings means I get to see this handsome feller :)
He's really adorable.

Damien Junior/Senior Prom - "Forever"

I was Delmer's date for prom. His tie matches my dress (stripes) and he didn't even know I had stripes. Pretty cool.

Filipino mafia in front of Matthew's house.
STS picture (sort of). Taking this picture was harder than it looks, which explains the disorganization.I love these hot gals. It's all about being single ;]

Overall, I enjoyed my last prom in high school. The dancing was great and it was nice seeing faces I haven't seen in a while. This is a step closer to graduation! >.<

Growing op

The beginning of May has seriously hit me in the face really hard. I realized that I only have 8 more days of class in high school. Wtf. Time seriously flies by really quickly.

Today I took my AP Spanish exam at UH Manoa and I seriously did my best for Senora Slate because she's the bomb. She packed the best variety of snacks for our break too. She gave us flaming hot cheetos, chips ahoy, mochi, and gold fish. Haha, I love her. After our exam, we went to eat Subway and I felt like having a kanack attack because it was "muy delicioso." I'm pretty excited for Spanish class now because we don't need to work and we're probably going to watch these sexual movies. Mwuaha.

On another note, I will really miss high school even if the school work is killer. I'll miss my friends and my really cool teachers. I can't believe I'm graduating so soon already. It's making me feel kind of depressed. My really close friends are leaving me for San Francisco and it makes me really sad that I can't go. I don't have enough money and the financial aid they offered was soo little. Faaaaaaack. Goodbye USF ;( I have to sacrifice my dream school to stay here. Ugh...........it's a really shitty feeling, for real. But I can't be selfish when it comes to financial difficulties.

Hopefully I get a job and save enough money to visit my friends there and transfer after two years at UH Manoa. Which reminds me, I applied somewhere that's hiring and I'm hoping they hire me for the summer. I need money. I feel bad for depending on my parents so much. Time to grow up.

The best of 3-day weekends

Since our school made tomorrow a holiday (no school), the girls and I decided to hang out after Church. We ate dinner at Kuru Kuru Sushi because that's our usual favorite sushi place. Genki sushi is overrated and their prices are getting way too high. Kuru Kuru is seriously where it's at.

We donated a $1 to the Arthritis Foundation and we all wrote our names on it. Apparently Kathleen decided to write our secret (which isn't a secret anymore) crush on the spicy tuna bowl maker. Haha.

Then we hung out until I needed to go home. Thanks to my brother for being a good sport and hanging out with us.

Women Problems

Let's just say I spent my Saturday lying on my bed, dying.

Men strew wool cramps suck.

Makapu'u

So I pretty much drove my dad's truck (rugged) on the other side of the island at night and spent time with my Filipino and "moke" friends. It was fun being in the dark, by the ocean, and behind Misha's truck.

We decided to eat in Zippy's at Coco Marina, but apparently they close at 12. Lame. Thanks to our usual Zippy's "spot" we went to the one in Vineyard and ate dinner/breakfast. Got home at 2 because I had to drop everyone off, and the ride home was pretty quiet.

Something real?

After every fucked up situation that's happened, I feel as if I don't expect as much as I used to. I've simply stopped caring about how I feel and how much I've been hurt.

I have every right to be mad at you, but I choose not to. I leave you alone, but that's not because I'm being bitter. I need time away from you, but apparently you don't need any because you're so great at pretending that nothing happened. I know I hurt you and this isn't some 'pity me' b.s. But tell me, how can you be such a true person then turn out to have no heart?

Where'd all the genuine people go? Don't hide your true identity with a facade. Who are you trying to fool?

Short day

I finally got my (provisional) license today. It didn't take much effort to convince my dad in letting me stay home instead of going back to school. I felt too tired and I didn't do any studying over the weekend. It gave me time to catch up on things.

Rant-of-the-day:
- Economics sucks right now. I seriously don't understand the complicating process of achieving economic stability.
- Apparently I have an AP exam on Wednesday.
- I have no quiet time or space in this household. Fuck.

No sleep

After sleeping for 4 hours at the hotel and getting home, I longed to sleep on my bed. However, my family had plans to go around the island and I didn't have the chance to get a good rest. Other than being really fatigue and hash-looking, I had a lot of fun. I enjoyed eating the most though. Haha.

P.I. meets HI

We call him Papa P because he kinda looks like Piolo Pascua, except more handsome.
Yay for Pineapples!

"Mystical Illusions"

I must say that I had a really great time at prom. The dj was great, picture lines weren't that long, and I had fun dancing with everyone. I'm pretty sad that this is my last prom, but there's still Damien prom. One more to go!

My pretty bouqet :)

My hair was pretty bad ass. It stayed up the entire night and when I woke up the next morning.

My best friend and date, Juhr-old

My favorite gals & Uncle Pong

The view from the Pent House

Hard work pays off

Today was the National Honor Society induction and my parents actually came. I guess all the sleepless, vulnerable nights eventually paid off. It peeels berrry goood. Speaking of feeling really good, nothing seems to phase me lately. I love it.

My heart is seriously salivating. You are way tooo shweet.

Family outing

My day started off in the afternoon, due to my late hours of sleeping. Hm, then my mom decided to go to Waianae for a family outing since we used to live there when I was younger. It was pretty fun. We went to Pokai Bay for fun and it was really cold. School tomorrow. Ugh.

Be Z

I was really tired today, driving my mom and brother around to pick up food for our Welcome Party at my house. Went to the "Red Carpet Affair" with the juniors at their prom to be their paparazzi. Then I went home to lots of Filipino relatives and re-united with my favorite cousins and grind on delicious filipino food. Mmm.

Mcflurry

Palolo Valley for the first time. Starbucks. Panda bowls. Ill Hill performance. Intense crave for an oreo McFlurry. Truck bed convos. Zzzleepy. 2AM.

That concludes my night/morning.

Tired of school-work

I'm seriously getting really lazy and doing a half-ass job on almost everything. It's weird because I'm not even working hard and I get really tired. Aghh, I'm totally dreading school-work but I don't want high school to end yet.

Well, after school we got our cap and gown along with other graduation things. Graduation coming soon doesn't even feel real, it hasn't hit me yet. Nothing really hits me until when it actually happens or after it. Haha.

Ah faak, I'm growing up.

EAST ERR

Went to Mass. Got bored at the Easter egg hunt. Ate really good fried chicken. Took a hella long nap. Went to Terence's party. Got a really shitty "come home now" call. No school tomorrow. Time to procrastinate.

Hm.

- You're the strongest person I know. I know you love us and I know that everything you sacrifice is for our benefit. I just hate how you're so self-less and hard on yourself. I'm not doubting you. Please, just stop. Think about the people you're hurting. I wish it was so easy to tell you this.

On a lighter note, it was a good night. I love these bitches.

Angelo Pietro

After looking for prom shoes, accessories and make-up, we decided to dine at Angelo Pietro's Italian Restaurant. We've never eaten there before and I'm glad my friends like trying different types of food because our dinner turned out really good. Thinking about it right now is making me really hungry.



We ended the night with spontaneously going to Tantalus because it was Casey, Kathleen, and Genelle's first time up there. That's probably the best picture I've taken (so far) of the view while at the top. But of course, the picture wouldn't be as great as actually seeing the view. I love my camera (and my girls).