Mardi Gras / Fat Tuesday

1. I haven't really thought of what I'm giving up for Lent yet. It's kind of hard because I'm so selfish and choose to give up simple things. For example, I've been giving up chocolate and soda every Lent since Freshman year. Other than that, I have some things in mind and hopefully I'll decide before tomorrow. 

2. I'm feeling better than usual. I've made goals to achieve and I'm motivated enough to accomplish them. I really hope I don't give up on them though. Lately, I've been feeling really boring. I feel like school is what I look forward to everyday and then when I get home, it's a challenge to stay focused. I hate wandering off and thinking about things I really don't want to. It keeps me off track and takes up too much of my time. 

3. Right now, my heart feels like it's stuck in a nightmare. I hope it wakes up soon so that I'll feel a whole lot better. As much as I'd like time to go by slower, I wish things like these would go by quicker.

Life is kinda funny

So it's almost 1 am and I'm still awake, finishing my 5-page essay. It's officially Friday and I can't wait for the weekend. But then I realized, I don't like staying home. Being home makes me think too much about things that I really don't want to. Going to school keeps me busy and allows me to have the surrounding comfort of friends. So I guess I'm looking forward to sleep. And then I realized how I wish to be hungry all the time because it keeps my mind off other things. When I'm hungry, I think about food and eating as soon as possible.

The other day in Physiology, we dissected a sheep's heart (yes, it was real). It was pretty nasty poking it and stuff, but it was cool. I find it funny that we're learning about the heart and how it functions, especially right now. Ha. But uhhhhm, I'm not really a person who gets really personal with life and say my feelings in blogs so this might be a little confusing. I don't know. 

I need to breathe or something. Possibly have more time with other people instead of spending time alone. It will help this process run faster.....hopefully. Hm.

Apology

• I'm sorry I took my anger out on you
• I'm sorry that relationships get tough
• I'm sorry I took you for granted
• I'm sorry for being so hurt
• I'm sorry I let you put the blame on me
• I'm sorry for admitting that it's my fault
• I'm sorry you gave up so quickly
• I'm sorry for always being true to you
• I'm sorry for telling you that I miss you
• I'm sorry it's too late to apologize
• I'm sorry that today is Valentine's Day
• I'm sorry you don't want to speak to me
• I'm sorry that the bad overpowered the good
• I'm sorry you don't love me anymore
• I'm sorry that I do

Rant

• I hate the stupid dark "eye bag look" around my eyes. I'm starting to look like I'm on drugs, which I'm not.
• Fuck tests that are on the same day, right after each other. (Economics, Lifestyles, and Physiology)
• I hate wasting time, which I'm doing right now.
• Time needs to last longer. My days are so limited.
• I've got an icebox where my heart used to be.
• Math homework is pissing me off.
• I miss my parents.
• I hate driving to school in the morning.
• I'm in desperate need of a new ipod with more space. I don't like deleting songs constantly.
• Shut up, Hello Kitty is overrated.
• Bragging about drinking alcohol and smoking weed doesn't make you look "cool."

HMMMM. I sound so cranky, but I'm just annoyed. Now I need to pick up my irresponsible brother at the bus stop..

Full week of school

BRING IT ON.

I can handle this :)